Gym, My love!

Okay, so it is official, I LOVE GYM! Thats right. I am having an affair with none other than the gym. It is so much work but I love how I feel after going to the gym. This last couple of weeks I have actually been going regularly. It has been nice to feel the pain and the energy. However the energy is really starting to bother me, it shows up at 10 or 11 at night! So I need to figure out how to make it show up sooner so I can sleep at night. Anyway BLUE arrow day for me today. :)

Gym Time

My friend texted me and asked if we were going to go to the gym tonight. I didn't really want to go, BUT I knew I had to. So I of course said, YEAH! So we went to the gym. It wasn't the best work out, but it was at least a workout. tomorrow is another day and the blue arrow is slowly sneaking its way back into my posts. :)

Sleepless nights and Temptations!

Sleeping is essential, I get it. I understand how essential it is but lately I haven't been getting much sleep. I can lay in my bed and stare at the ceiling for HOURS.....it gets kinda boring and so lately I have been getting up and doing more productive things....cleaning the living room, making crafts, sewing, etc. etc. Things I don't make time for during the day. At least those are getting done, but my sleep is lagging. I have probably had about 4 hours of sleep in the last 3 days. It is really unnerving but I have tried all the things I can think of....I have even tried my Stress management tapes, which usually put me right to sleep! Needless to say it is annoying......for example when you are tempted with such yummy goodness as dark chocolate strawberry goodness from Ghiradelli chocolates. It is hard to avoid temptation when you are tired. It is also hard to want to get up and eat. So not only am I dealing with lack of sleep but it makes it hard to get up and want to eat something healthy and make good choices.

Anyway today is another Red arrow day (although I am really too lazy to upload the picture)

today is a Red arrow day :(

Although I had a really good day with my family (spending time with my grandparents for their 50th wedding anniversary), I had a very bad eating day. I ate too much and then I figured since I was already over doing it, why not continue. So I continued.....today I very much have the pain of regret. Sorry to disappoint. I hope I won't stay in this slump long. If you see me, keep encouraging me, I could use the support right now. :) Thanks!

The Blue Arrow

Let me introduce you to the BLUE arrow. HE is kind, considerate, and lets you know when I have done good! If you see a blue arrow, you know that I have succeeded in losing weight.

Thanksgiving day- 336 LBS
Christmas Day- 330 LBS
New Years- 328
Today- (and yes it has been that long since I weighed) 323!

SWEET! I am down 13 pounds since Thanksgiving.

So off I go to keep trying.

I gained myself a new workout buddy so hopefully you will hear of me going to the gym more often. I am excited!!!

Have a great day! As for me?? I am going to watch my daughter Speed skate!

FAIL!!!

Cake is Not for Breakfast....however when you sleep in and have to spend 3 hours at Church...ya do what you can! Ok...I probably should have grabbed something healthier, My logic wasn't working well this morning. I am not going to get down on myself though..I am going to pull myself up and say, HEY! CAKE ISN'T FOR BREAKFAST!!!! Tomorrow, I think I will try an egg, or two ;)

One at a time

I have had a good conversation with a friend today. I asked her why she felt that she couldn't lose weight. We had quite the conversation about it. Came up with the same answers everyone comes up with, Too lazy, My body is just used to being this way, I have convinced myself that I will never be able to do it, Etc. However from my experience, and from what I have learned in the last 2 years is there is SOMETHING deep down inside that keeps you from doing it, besides those easy A answers. I know what mine is. I have been dealing with it for years, I have been in counseling and I have had a lot of help to reach a point that I no longer am bound by what happened in the past. I hope that she will be able to find hers. Anyway the first step is finding that road block. Kicking it aside and taking a step. So I hope she will find hers soon.

Which brings me to another point......I have Hooked someone else in on my journey (Yes it happens to be the person mentioned above), That means there are 2 on the journey to a healthier me. Who else is gonna join in the movement?? Yep I am officially calling it a movement.

One at a time I hope to rope you all in. I love you all and want you to be happy and healthy....so here goes!

Have a great day!

LOVE the Gym!

I LOVE my gym! There are so many supportive people there. It is because of them that I even exercise at all. I have been member there for almost 2 years now. I can't believe how many relationships I have gained there. It is an amazing feeling to have support behind you when you need it.

Today I went and I was pumped and ready to go. I love to work out. It is an enjoyable thing for me.....I just don't always have the time to go. But this year I am MAKING time to go so that I can do this.

I have maybe one of the MOST amazing people as my trainer. Her name is Lael. She is absolutely awesome. She is always positive and willing to work with you. She has been a great help in my journey so far. Yes I have been going to a trainer for the last year and I have not lost the weight because as I said in my last post, I BELIEVED that I would be this weight forever. It is a mind set that I am willing to lose and gain a more positive and happy mindset that PAIN is good (well not all pain but this pain is) and that I CAN do it. Not only that but she has helped me to let go of a lot of things that I was holding on to, things that were preventing me from WANTING to lose the weight. She seriously is most amazing!

She has done something amazing for me and she has convinced me that my mind is wrong and that with the right mind set combined with nutrition and exercise, I can do this. So thank you to my wonderful trainer.

Thank you also to all you who have already visited my blog and are here to support me. I really appreciate you. I can do this!

Have a most Fabulous day!

Welcome!

Welcome to my new blog. A Journey to a Healthier me.

As of today I am 326 pounds. Down TEN pounds since Thanksgiving. I know I can do better than that...and so I am going to bite the bullet and just do it.

I am going to have to change my thought process...I have been under the hypnotic conclusion that it doesn't matter anymore and that I am going to be this weight for the rest of my life.

WRONG!!!!!

I CAN lose this weight and I CAN be healthy and I CAN do this!!!!!

So I ask you to join me in what could be the most amazing transformation in my life.

Thank you for coming along on the Journey.

Cynthia